18 10 2011

I clearly need to dust off my blog a little, wouldn’t you say? I had to look and see how long it has been since I have posted anything here. We have been busy living life. We haven’t been doing anything spectacular and there really isn’t any reason that I haven’t updated except that there are a ton of reasons.
To quickly update, we are ‘actively’ waiting with our agency. We haven’t heard anything at all. Our social worker recently left our agency, which caused me to cry giant crocodile tears (which is funny because I wasn’t a huge fan of our old worker prior to adopting R). We met our new social worker last Friday to renew our home study and found out lots of things I need to chew on.  R constantly asks about a new baby and randomly tells people that she going to have a baby sister (or sometimes, less frequently a baby brother). Speaking of R, she is amazing. I mean, AMAZING. She seriously is the most awesome little girl in the whole world. (For those of you that are thinking in your head that your little girl is the best, I am sorry, but you are incorrect. I don’t expect you to agree with me, but I’m right! *wink*) She has me on my toes, that’s for sure, but she is so sweet and funny and awesome to be around. The other night, she was cracking up out loud to Winnie the Pooh. I love that she has her own sense of humor outside of what we think is funny. Every day I write down funny things she says or does, new things she experiences, new ways she makes me love her. I am so ridiculously lucky.
Really, I just haven’t felt like blogging. It isn’t that I don’t have anything to say. I never run out of things to say, and adoption subjects only exponentially increase my opinionated-ness. I have TONS to say about other blog topics, Steve Jobs, Kristin Davis, people annoying me on facebook, people annoying me in public, writing complaints to companies because an employee said offensive things to me about adoption in front of my daughter, birth parent relationships, Glee, Parenthood… I could go on and on. I could fill a book with my opinions, experiences, and rants. And I would love it. However, I really am not interested in a debate. I consistently find myself offended for myself, for my daughter, for my daughter’s birth family (and for all adoptive parents, adoptees and birth families alike). I feel like I walk a pretty healthy line with respect for all member of the triad (and I am equally appalled at the public’s misconceptions and ignorance surrounding all things adoption). I am somewhat of a glutton for punishment and often read (and read and read) comments on the adoption related stories. It amazes me how many people have such strong opinions about adoption when they have absolutely no experience in the matter. The hate and ignorance is astounding. Don’t worry, I also laugh out loud at the ignorance enough that I know it isn’t making me jaded or anything. Anyhow, I suppose that reading enough of that has robbed me of my desire to have open dialogue with anyone via the internet about something that hits home so much. So, I pretty much just talk to those people I have grown to know about it and keep up with everyone else’s debates.

Sounds really cynical, huh?  I don’t feel that cynical, but it sure sounds it.  Ok, just pretent I didn’t write this and I promise to get back to blogging soon.




4 responses

19 10 2011

I LOVE how you describe R here…as Jax gets older, I love watching his personality emerge. I always wonder to myself if I could ever love them as much as I do right NOW, when they are older? Because I LOVE them as my babies…and then I read things like this and I just know I will…so thank you:). Oh, and I stay away from all that negativity. I DON’T read any of those comments, don’t care to. Not worth my energy. So I live in this bubble where I think everyone is on the same page as I am, lol!

25 10 2011

I shouldn’t read those comments, but at the same time, it prepares me for when I do get stuff out in the real world. It preps me for the ignorance!!

24 10 2011

I hope I’m not irritating you on FB! 😉

R is a hoot… lucky you!

Glad to know you’re not dropping off the face of the earth in blogland.

25 10 2011

Oh, Aillie. Of course you aren’t irritating me on FB. Its the same people I see every day that are irritating me there! Haha!

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