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A family of four

26 12 2011

I have so much to say about the past few weeks in my house, but I am struggling to find the right words and I am struggling to decide how much to share.

The basics…

We got a call from our agency on Tuesday the 13th telling us we had been chosen by the parents of a 7 week old baby girl.  We met them the following day and we officially matched with them, planning a placement ceremony for Saturday, the 17th.

Ensue panick.

I effectively got ready for a baby, registered, and finished Christmas shopping/baking/wrapping in two days (two days longer than we had last time!!).  Then on Saturday, we brought home a baby girl!

She an absolutely amazing baby.  I don’t dare call her easy, but she is certainly easy-going!! Big sis (baby sis’ name also starts with an R, so big sis can’t be R) is doing SO good and I am feeling overwhelmingly blessed and honored and humbled and in awe.

I have so much to write about.

1.  Placement – rocked me to my core.

2. The circumstances in Little Sis’ adoption plan and where that leaves us now.

3. Adopting a 7-week-old versus a newborn.

4.  Surprise adoptions… the good and bad of it all.

5. Christmas as a family of four.

Most of these posts will be password protected and probably not in that order.



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26 12 2011

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Gotta love Christmas Card time!!

1 11 2011

It is November 1st, so of course it is time to start thinking about Christmas!!  I probably spend more time thinking about my Christmas cards and Christmas pics than the average person, although I probably spend more time thinking about pictures in general than the average person.  We just got back from Disneyland, where I took over 700 pictures in 3 days (I kid you not!).  I can’t wait to get them printed!!

Last year, we did our family Christmas cards through Shutterfly and they turned out beautifully!  We got so many compliments on them and many of my family members have the card framed in their homes still. 

This is the one we used….  I still LOVE it!

Looking through their selection of  Holiday Cards, I know I am going to have a hard time choosing. For me, I love simplicity.  I love the folded cards and I love the cards that have one picture that take up the entire front of the card with a Christmas message overlay.  Here are my top pics, which of course will be narrowed down once we get our family photos taken.

This is a flat card, which isn’t my first choice, but I LOVE the words on it and it is easier on the pocketbook!! 🙂

This one is flat, too, but I LOVE it!!

Ok, so I guess I like a lot of the flat ones this year….

LOVE this one.

I love the bright colors on this one, too!

This is my front-runner right now, although I could look for hours and hours!!

Do you have a good sense of my style?  Check them out for yourself, though, there are lots of other options out there to suit YOUR style, too!

I can’t wait to get some photos taken up in the mountains for our Christmas cards and at the Santa’s workshop event we are going to for Thanksgiving weekend!

On the slim chance that we could get matched or placed between now and Christmas, I am going to order late and have my cards there the week of Christmas!!

I think my family is really getting tired of getting photo gifts from me, I this year I am going to be asking for some instead of giving some.  I LOVE photobooks, but do you know what?  I don’t even have ONE.  I always make them and give them away.  I really want a photo book of our trip to Disney last week (a post about that coming sooooon!) and would like one from last year’s trip to Michigan.


They also have TONS and TONS of potential Christmas gifts.  I am looking at the luggage tags for my traveling step-mom and I think R would go BONKERS over a Dora book with her picture and name in it.


19 10 2011

We are going on day 10 of the sickies.  Actually, I think we are officially better, but the drugs make R so loopy we may as well be sick.  My poor girl.  Quick run down…

Last sunday we were up all night with a high fever and tummy trouble.  Same for Monday and Tuesday.  Wednesday seemed pretty normal and Thursday all snot broke loose and everything went downhill from there.  Thursday, Friday and Saturday were full of boogie wipes, disney movies, hacking coughs, humidifiers and vicks.  THEN, Saturday night, the hives started.  Maybe I live under a rock, but I had never even heard of hives from being sick.  But hives we had.  And tons of them, everywhere.  So to urgent care we went.  Now, they finally under control and hopefully my girly will get to participate in the fall festivities tomorrow and friday at her school.

This was her worst arm, which was better than both legs and her belly.


18 10 2011

I clearly need to dust off my blog a little, wouldn’t you say? I had to look and see how long it has been since I have posted anything here. We have been busy living life. We haven’t been doing anything spectacular and there really isn’t any reason that I haven’t updated except that there are a ton of reasons.
To quickly update, we are ‘actively’ waiting with our agency. We haven’t heard anything at all. Our social worker recently left our agency, which caused me to cry giant crocodile tears (which is funny because I wasn’t a huge fan of our old worker prior to adopting R). We met our new social worker last Friday to renew our home study and found out lots of things I need to chew on.  R constantly asks about a new baby and randomly tells people that she going to have a baby sister (or sometimes, less frequently a baby brother). Speaking of R, she is amazing. I mean, AMAZING. She seriously is the most awesome little girl in the whole world. (For those of you that are thinking in your head that your little girl is the best, I am sorry, but you are incorrect. I don’t expect you to agree with me, but I’m right! *wink*) She has me on my toes, that’s for sure, but she is so sweet and funny and awesome to be around. The other night, she was cracking up out loud to Winnie the Pooh. I love that she has her own sense of humor outside of what we think is funny. Every day I write down funny things she says or does, new things she experiences, new ways she makes me love her. I am so ridiculously lucky.
Really, I just haven’t felt like blogging. It isn’t that I don’t have anything to say. I never run out of things to say, and adoption subjects only exponentially increase my opinionated-ness. I have TONS to say about other blog topics, Steve Jobs, Kristin Davis, people annoying me on facebook, people annoying me in public, writing complaints to companies because an employee said offensive things to me about adoption in front of my daughter, birth parent relationships, Glee, Parenthood… I could go on and on. I could fill a book with my opinions, experiences, and rants. And I would love it. However, I really am not interested in a debate. I consistently find myself offended for myself, for my daughter, for my daughter’s birth family (and for all adoptive parents, adoptees and birth families alike). I feel like I walk a pretty healthy line with respect for all member of the triad (and I am equally appalled at the public’s misconceptions and ignorance surrounding all things adoption). I am somewhat of a glutton for punishment and often read (and read and read) comments on the adoption related stories. It amazes me how many people have such strong opinions about adoption when they have absolutely no experience in the matter. The hate and ignorance is astounding. Don’t worry, I also laugh out loud at the ignorance enough that I know it isn’t making me jaded or anything. Anyhow, I suppose that reading enough of that has robbed me of my desire to have open dialogue with anyone via the internet about something that hits home so much. So, I pretty much just talk to those people I have grown to know about it and keep up with everyone else’s debates.

Sounds really cynical, huh?  I don’t feel that cynical, but it sure sounds it.  Ok, just pretent I didn’t write this and I promise to get back to blogging soon.

Finding my groove

31 08 2011

So, I am not sure how it happened, but somewhere along the line I found my groove.

I spent the first year (or more… definitely more) of R’s life mourning the loss of my SAHMness.  I had always planned to be a SAHM and when that didn’t happen, it was devastating.  When I would drop R off at her sitter, some days I would be sick to my stomach.  I missed her, yes, that was a big part of it, but it wasn’t the majority of the issue.  It took me a really long time to figure out what the issue was.

You see, I learned pretty quickly that I am a great working mom.  I have so much patience with R.  I rarely lose my temper with her, I love to be with her more than anything, and, because our time together is limited, the time we spend is QUALITY.  When we are home and R is awake, I don’t clean, watch TV (unless it is with her), do laundry, read, get on the computer, talk on the phone or anything else that doesn’t have to do with spending time with her (with the exception of cooking, which usually R chooses to partake in).   I have ALWAYS felt good about the time we spend together and even though it wasn’t enough (is there ever ENOUGH time?), I didn’t feel like we fell short either.  That all being said, I still struggled daily with going to work and not being home with her. 

Until we switched to her new school.  I am not going to rave about her school again (although I could.  I could go on and on and on and on), but the change in our family and the change in ME in all areas of my life is amazing since we have found this place, a place where we ALL feel comfortable.

I don’t feel guilty anymore.  I feel like R is getting the best of both worlds now.  She is learning so much and thriving beyond words (this morning, on the way to school she pointed and said, “that red octagon sign says STOP” AND she can spell her name and find the letters to her name and put them in order) and I am the best mom I can be when we get home.  I feel so confident that while I am at work helping our family, she is learning, socializing, interacting, singing and generally loving every minute of it.  For me personally, I have been able to become the employee that I was before the mommy guilt set it.  I am more productive at work, more productive at home and just generally feeling better than I ever have.  I do know that I need a little better work/home balance, but for the time being, things are good.

The best part is, with my increased productivity at work, I have earned a ton of new roles in my career.  I am now, once again, heading up my department.  We are expanding and I am slotted to take the next step up when the time comes (even though I will pass up that opportunity, they don’t have to know that at this point).  I am training all of our new people and doing my regular job.  My boss is gone frequently now due to his personal issues and often leaves without any notice or direction with full confidence that I will take care of everything.  It is a pretty good feeling.  Most recently, I am heading up the workflow of our entire department… which is not only super interesting to me, but it gave me some pretty big bullets for when our next child comes along.  You see, my ultimate goal is to work part time.  In doing the scheduling, I’ve noticed we have some serious issues with our workflow in that we have to staff for our busiest days, which leaves us overstaffed on our slowest days.  So, guess who wants to take the slowest days off indefinitely when baby #2 comes along?  I have the info and they can’t say no.  I know they don’t want to lose me and although they are going to be really dissapointed when they offer me a promo and I counter offer with staying in my current possition and working fewer hours, we will all adjust.   My gun is loaded with knowledge and I am super excited!